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Chapter 10 of 16

For You, the Unbeautiful

Cristelle

Ggh...!

Are you okay?!

Cristelle

...I'm fine. She just grazed me, so it's not as bad as it looks.

Cristelle

I didn't expect such a difficult fight... Impressive.

Cristelle

But in the end, I, Cristelle, have triumphed.

Cristelle

Now then, Haydee. What will you do?

Cristelle

No matter how much power you've gained, you can't possibly master strength you just obtained overnight.

Haydee

...Yeah. I lost.

Haydee

But it doesn't matter.

Haydee

Victory, defeat... even this life...

Haydee

None of it means anything anymore.

Haydee, you're back to your senses!

Let's get out of here. The palace is about to collapse.

Haydee

...*Sigh* You really are dense, Captain. You still don't get it?

Haydee

This Void may have consumed half my body...

Haydee

But I was already in my right mind by the time you two got here.

Haydee

Cristelle seemed to notice partway, though.

Cristelle

...Yes. For someone supposedly out of her mind...

Cristelle

It was obvious that you were hesitating to attack us.

What...? Then...

Haydee

Then why did I attack you?

Haydee

...Of course it was my choice.

But why...?

Cristelle

...Did you want us to kill you? To die at our hands?

Haydee

...

Haydee

Because... nothing means anything anymore.

What... are you talking about?

You were trying to die...?

Haydee

Exactly.

Haydee

...I should've been buried beneath the sands and disappeared long ago anyway.

Haydee

So I might as well die now. Nothing's going to change.

What about your revenge?

Haydee

Revenge...? Heh...

Haydee

...I remembered everything I'd forgotten for so long.

Haydee

Who I am, how the kingdom was destroyed...

Haydee

And that someone like me...

Haydee

...Doesn't even have the right to seek revenge.

Cristelle

You don't have the right to seek revenge...?

Haydee

Look at all of this. Morcerf didn't kill these people. I did.

Haydee

I lost my mind and stabbed them, tore them apart, cut them down with my own hands.

Haydee

The power that blossomed inside me consumed me and turned me into a monster.

Haydee

I killed everyone who begged for mercy, everyone who cared about me, and destroyed the kingdom.

Haydee

Morcerf may have planted the seed inside me...

Haydee

But in the end, I was the one who brought the kingdom down.

Haydee

That's the memory I had forgotten.

Cristelle

...Haydee. Is that the truth you've uncovered?

Haydee

...Yeah.

Haydee

I think I understand why I lost my memories.

Haydee

I probably wanted to forget everything I'd done.

Haydee

So I could tell myself it wasn't me.

Haydee

Instead, I denied reality and ran away, all while blaming the sage for everything.

Haydee

In the end, the hideous, pathetic culprit sealed away even her own memories and buried herself beneath the ruins.

Haydee

Then, laughably enough, I had the nerve to demand revenge...

Haydee

But now... I'm done.

Haydee

Because none of it... means anything anymore.

After uttering those shocking words, Haydee collapsed to the ground and gripped her broken spear.

Then, she pointed its tip at herself.

The spear shaft was knocked away and flew weakly through the air before embedding itself in the ground.

Haydee

Hey...

Haydee

...Don't interfere. You'll get yourself killed.

Haydee

The Void planted inside me... is only catching its breath.

Haydee

Once it starts raging again, I won't be able to control it anymore. Do you understand what I'm saying?

...No!

Haydee

...What's wrong with you?!

Haydee

This is my decision.

Haydee

Whether I live or die is none of your business.

Haydee

Don't act like we're something special just because we spent a single day together.

Haydee

Revenge was the only thing that kept me going this far.

Haydee

But... now even that's gone.

Haydee

So now I'm just putting things back the way they were always supposed to be.

I already made a promise.

I said I'd help you.

Haydee

I'm telling you, I don't need that anymore...!

Haydee

You... You don't know anything! Stop sticking your nose where it doesn't belong!

You're right. I don't.

So I'll save you however I want.

Haydee

...Why? Why would you do that?

If I had to give a reason...

It's because I want to see a different ending.

Haydee

Are you stupid...?

Haydee

You're forcing this just for a reason like that?

I grabbed Haydee's hand where she sat and pulled her to her feet.

Haydee

...!

There has to be another way.

We can figure out what it is from here.

Haydee

No... This can't be... my memories...

Haydee

This can't be what really happened...

So what if revenge lost all meaning?

Haydee

That's easy for you to say! But it's not for me!

Haydee

If...

Haydee

If you say something like that, then...

Then we'll just find something else that does mean something.

Haydee

...

Haydee

Why... Why now...?

Haydee

I thought I'd lost... everything...

Haydee

I thought it was all over...

Tears welled in Haydee's eyes as her voice began to break, but I couldn't afford to indulge her any longer either.

We had to get out of here before the royal palace collapsed.

I forced Haydee back onto her feet despite her weakened legs.

Cristelle

...As I thought. So this is how it ends.

Cristelle

Unfortunately, we can't take Haydee back with us, Captain.

What? Why?

Cristelle

Because Haydee... has to die here.

Cristelle's gun was pointed directly at Haydee and me.

Cristelle

Captain, step away from her. If you stay where you are, I'll have no choice but to shoot you too.

Why are you doing this...?

Cristelle

Captain, Void has been planted inside Haydee's body.

Cristelle

And the one who planted the seeds of that Void was Morcerf.

Cristelle

Isn't that right, Haydee? You know it too.

Haydee

...Yeah.

Cristelle

Captain. Surely you haven't forgotten our original objective?

Cristelle

My right eye... is no longer human.

Cristelle

It's been completely consumed by the Void Force, so it's closer to the eye of a Voidborn.

Haydee

So basically, we capture the sage who exists in this era... Then Cristelle uses her ability to absorb and analyze her Void.

Haydee

And that will let us figure out what Morcerf looks like now and where she's hiding.

Cristelle

We may not have found the sage herself, but what truly matters is the Void she left behind.

Cristelle

And right now, it's writhing inside Haydee.

Cristelle

She plants Void inside a human body and cultivates its power.

Cristelle

Then, when that power finally takes control of its host...

Haydee

...A kingdom falls.

Haydee

That was probably... the final chapter of the forgotten kingdom.

Cristelle

Which makes my choice obvious.

Cristelle

I will kill Haydee and take the Void within her.

Wait... Then what you were about to say earlier was...

Cristelle

If my theory is correct, Haydee is...

Cristelle

When I found Haydee, I...

Cristelle

...

Cristelle

...Yes. Back then, it was merely a suspicion, so I saw no reason to voice it.

Cristelle

Now, that suspicion has become certainty.

But... she's your companion!

Cristelle

A "companion," you say?

Cristelle

I see. So that's how it looked to you.

Cristelle

That just means you were taken in by my act.

Your "act"...?

Cristelle

Yes. It was all an act. Nothing more than a lie.

Cristelle

I used Haydee. I pretended to be a good person and fed her warm words I never meant.

Cristelle

I made sure others saw me that way too. Even forced myself to smile in front of them.

Cristelle

But none of it was ever sincere. That's the kind of person I am.

...

Cristelle

Disappointed, Captain? Because I'm such a wicked person?

Cristelle

But it can't be helped.

Cristelle

From the very beginning, I was... nothing but an empty shell.

Cristelle

I was already like that the moment I first met Haydee.

Cristelle

Everything I have is false. Nothing but appearances.

Cristelle

Someone like me... has no choice but to put on a convincing mask and play a part.

Cristelle

Because there's nothing else left inside me.

Cristelle

Family, friends, my homeland, a quiet and comforting place to sleep at night...

Cristelle

And you expect me to have a warm heart capable of cherishing another person?

Cristelle

Something so soft and sentimental...

Cristelle

I can't even remember when that was taken from me anymore.

...Is there nothing I can do to change your mind?

Cristelle

Fufu... If such a way existed... I would've already found it by now.

Cristelle

You couldn't possibly imagine how many years I've endured, with only the promise of revenge to keep me going.

Cristelle

The cursed power dwelling in my right eye made it impossible for me to die, no matter I desperately I wished for it.

Cristelle

The obsession of someone who lost everything and was denied even the right to escape through death...

Cristelle

You could never understand it.

Cristelle

And... I don't want you to understand. I simply seek to move forward to achieve my goal.

Cristelle

No matter who stands in the way of my revenge, or what I must do to achieve it.

Cristelle

I've already... lived that way for so long. Trampling the innocent, using them, sacrificing them.

Cristelle

Every wicked deed I've committed was for this moment alone.

Cristelle

If I let this opportunity slip away now, I'll once again spend every night being haunted by visions of the day my life was destroyed.

Cristelle

...That is not what I want. So if you stand in my way, Captain, I'll trample you too.

...Then shoot me.

Cristelle

Haha... It seems you're under some misconception...

Cristelle

If you thought I was anything like the others, Captain, then you've made a grave mistake.

Cristelle

This isn't some empty threat meant to frighten you into backing down.

Cristelle's finger settled on the cold trigger.

Cristelle

I have to kill Haydee and seize what I came here for.